Friday, October 31, 2008

He tells me what's the meaning of life and what's life for




I adore you
I appreaciate you
I respect you
I love you

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH >.<











HE IS CUTE, HANDSOME, MAN, COOL, TEAM PLAYER, ACOUSTIC SONGS, LEADER OF LEADER, STYLISH FREESTYLE DANCING AND SOMEMORE FOR YOU TO FIGURE OUT~ AND CHEK IT OUT

Saturday, October 25, 2008

原来这才叫家

Do you ever wonder? during the funeral pocession you may wonder who is she who is he ? yea the answer is simple yet you don know them. They have blood connection with yours !! believe that. today only i know who is my paternal cousins and lots of cousin there from united state, taiwan,new zealand, hong kong ... XX some of them never come back before but the name is printed clearly on the newspaper flucks and state where they located. SOme more they are friendly, some quite obidient and some are cheerful and cute too..

haha Darren hoho super cute brother. He is only five years old and genius ^^ fair and cute guy.. with brain (this is what i admired so much)
some of my cousin change a lot some grow taller
some grow mature
some grow older
some more ...

but i keep on thinking ... is this the last chance we meet together by losing a main bonding element? my gramma.

will we meet again or next time when we meet somewhere else
when we get married
when we get settle in other country
will we still keep in touch
some more if someone leave earlier??
will we be informed and work together again?

yea i may think too much but don you feel curios??
curiosity kills a cat
and some more will we lose contact just like this
urh this is my 17th years old experience

my 3rd aunty is a very cheerful people.. she is quite a challenger haha nice to mix with... there is climax when you talk to here.. she likes to share this is what i observe and she cares everyone almost every single one!! i seen her once only during photo taking session then this time is the second time.. any third time?? or it is too early to say/?

some more now i only know there is cousin called AH TAK, BABE, MOI MOI , AH KWANG , AH BOY AH NA (THOSE ARE SPECIALL NICKNAME DEDICATED TO THEM)and zhuang zhuang (never see her before) yun yu and yun xiang and da yong (same age as me) i wonder how she look like and how tall is her and one thing i am sure is her studies and brained knowledge must be 10 to the power of N (n=100,101,102....)
-.- true la i don't think she does write blog playin friendster and MSN some more!! that never triggers your brain. (my hobby). Emily, Allison and Darren

my cousin oh yahh yun wei and cindy .. din see them for long time already~ hmm .. next year i don think i will be celebrating chinese new year ~ perhaps.......so when will we meet again??

sometime i feel like wanting to ask my cousin what is your last message that when you pray and chant for granny?? haha.. i feel so unconfortable for listening to the absence of granny that sudden absent in my heart such a wired feel and try to ignore this feeling.. the more i ignore the stronger the feel so ... hmm...speechless larh

true what to talk with my cousin.. i am type of person that like to do something more speciall then just play or talk with my cousin... when you ask me why am i so quite here you get the answer. I don like crowd and this is my bahavoir don you think it is cool... maybe one day i will be as talkative as someone and able to socialize with the crowd too perhaps... ....

婆婆终于安葬于二十七里





这朵花是我放在婆婆的棺材上的很美吧!!




啊!哭了三次!眼睛你辛苦了!好干哈哈。
但原谅我控制不住!!

first bloody hot experiece--> funeral possession


wahh very tired very tired!! need to stay up till morning ... i try to read history to wake me up but no use larh!! finally i go sleep. Kinda pack too like sardin can.. urh i can't move once i sleep . The about 2.00 morning i try to roll myself here and there.. soon people around me go away ahahah.. cannot stand with my momentum hoho... when i wake up ahah no ppl around.. cause need to go down stair prepared for the pocession hohoho

恨?


坦白的说:我不喜欢在婆婆家的原因多为大姑的家庭的存在。如果没有他们我们可说是个安乐窝。但如果没有他们,我也不会更爱那些我所爱的人。
纳闷季度虚伪,做作,废话连篇于有事不做,说话多过行动,难得他们一事无成,落得巴结人群过生活。
告诉你们!我会靠我自己,不像你们。像个跛子似的废人一个。吸血鬼。
这我都看在眼里。佛陀原谅她们的人为他们的无知。南无阿尼陀佛!sadhu sadhu!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

我累了

啊!今天这得很累很累,累得跟快熟面似的!!由于昨晚到深夜才回到家。
老师在讲课时,我很努力的配合和适时点个头。
朋友在跟我讲话时,我很努力的笑笑带过。
在做习题时,我的右脑告诉我他在休假请找隔壁的左脑吧!!
左到也用同一个理由拒绝了我!! 很无助。我放弃了。
一直不停的往外跑,每个校园的每个角落都有我的足迹单,理由是什么我也不知道。没有理由的忙碌。

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

当下

昨天,大约晚间时分我去了婆婆家。老实说我并没有好好地看婆婆的脸。不敢看,并不是做了亏心事,是看了怕整屋子是我的哭声!!吓坏了人。回家时大概瞄了婆婆一眼。他穿上中西很漂亮的设计。照片更为美丽。画上彩装的脸颊上那弯弯桥上的嘴角。真是完美的平图。

婆婆被放在一个摄氏零度以下的冷场棺材。婆婆在那安睡着,以最完美的姿态呈现给大家看。婆婆会觉得冷吗?在我最后一次握住他的双手,已是两个星期前的事了。回忆里是一双没有温度的双手。厚实的指纹,摸到的全是死皮上的薄皮。

空气里的细胞偷偷在呼唤我的泪水。我的泪在我扯着我的头留下了。我赶忙走到外头透透气。望着那灰暗的天,邻居间正房着老掉牙电台DJ的声音。几乎是模糊的。当晚风把我的泪水打走后,我再次回到屋里,呆坐在椅子上.



Monday, October 20, 2008

你快乐吗?有人欺负你吗?

在我婆婆被送进医院的那天,是我生日的那天。在我获奖的今天,是我婆婆离开这安乐窝的时候。他离开了安乐窝,到了极乐寺去了。回归到土地,成为快乐的天使的一分子,唱着圣歌。

我婆婆是一个忠诚的基督徒。在我很小时,我和婆婆一起住,每个星期日会和他一起去教堂。后来,我们拥有了属于自己的家。离开了他。我不喜欢在回到那里。因为我不喜欢看见那些巴结有势有利的姑姑们。那也许是我还小,想法幼稚。

后来都很少再回到那里,妈妈求我下车我都不要。我敢言在车里憋死都不下车。我很拗!妈妈也拿我没办法。

今天放学回家,我看见妈妈的皮包,食物和车子都留在家里。我的心开始忐忑不安。一支祈祷婆婆没事!但在两点的已通电话,把握打醒了!

我现在虽说是佛教徒,但我每天都有为我外婆启福!少之又少有为我婆婆起!!我很后悔

在我婆婆进家护病房时,我握着婆婆的手,他一直很努力的象脱开那氧气罩。好像要告诉我什么似的!他很无助!我了解!!我哭了



I like his songs << 100 types of life >>


I Like ThiS MoViE VeRy MucHHh










His and Her Songs quite nice ( NEW)






Saturday, October 18, 2008

下午的感想 (生日``第一辑)

星期五,谢谢燕芳给了我第一份礼物,当然还有姐姐从英国寄回来的生日卡片。星期六,晚间被一位久违的好友吵醒。我并没告诉他它打扰我睡觉。因为我很开心。 在我的网页也有很多不认识的某某某和朋友祝福。谢谢!老实说我不喜欢今天星期日。不想我的生日。坦白地说。后来我一直在法白日梦,才惊讶发掘记得我生日的全都是异性朋友。我的女性朋友都到哪里去了??好感伤的说。早上还得跟人挤车,一点都不好受。也许我对他人又说偏见还是什么的,我不懂!!

头好痛aaaaAAAA!!

昨天

人人都说失去后才懂得珍惜,果真!恶魔老师(小弟弟),他没来教课,好无聊!! 换来一个善良小帅哥教,闷死我了!我自己做我自己想做的事。另外不瞒你说,我在想恶魔老师!!没有他真的没乐趣。 没人告诉我那里错了这种感觉不断从演!!我不喜欢,也只能跟自己说。好希望告诉你很多事情。上星期没来是因为我偷懒,我在家行了很多理由。好吃力!! 没想到你没来,我一直担心你会回来吗?? 我很想告诉你,我想学站水而要你教我。但你没来。我很想告诉你,我试蝶式50米,但你没来!!

这些我都没告诉你,也不想告诉你。

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

she is someone






Full name:
Anastasia Valeryevna Liukin
Nickname(s):
Nastia
Country Represented:
United States
Date of birth:
October 30, 1989 (1989-10-30) (age 18)
Place of birth:
Moscow, Russian SFSR, USSR
Hometown:
Parker, Texas, USA
Height:
5 ft 3 in (1.60 m)
Discipline:
Women's artistic gymnastics
Level:
Senior International
Years on National Team:
6 (2002-2008)
Gym:
World Olympic Gymnastics Academy
Head coach(es):
Valeri Liukin
Assistant coach(es):
Natalya Marakova
Former coach(es):
Joe S Drake
Music:
Dark Eyes

Sunday, October 12, 2008

HATE TO MAKE DECISION MYSELF



yaya, I appreaciate i am given such an opportunity and I am "quite" qualified for this programme. One of the common reason is I didn't involve in the National Service. Now the question is to join or not, cause it is two weeks programme and somewhere i dunnoe and sometime i dunnoe with people i dunnoe lots of QQQ's in my mind. This programme will be held after SPM and after I graduate for my high school.


Recently, i found myself hard to sleep soundly.. i am not sure about the reason but one thing i want to prove is though i am a SPM student , I AM NOT PRESSURE AT ALL. Actually to say no feel. It is truth. I just cannot sleep. Help me! help me! during the day time headache and stomach pain trigger me AAHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (too dramatic** don't you think so?) hahha but it is true my life deprive of sleep. Any comment?? I sleep late not because of studying too much or thinking too much... just no answer (speechless to say) anything about me~


One of my dear friend is going to New Zealand! Cool right! somewhere i never dream before haha*-* i planned to go Australia (financial burdance) hope i can leap thorugh this wall ! It is make of brick full of traps make you fall make you scare !! What to do just look forward just walk and NEVER look back~ when hard time surround you remember you are not alone !! Appreciate ppl around you @ don regret after you losing them and they never come back to you ...


May the angels protect you Trouble neglect you And heaven accept you when its time to go home May you always have plenty Your glass never empty And know in your belly You're never alone May your tears come from laughing You find friends worth having With every year passing They mean more than gold May you win but stay humble Smile more than grumble And know when you stumble You're never alone Chorus: Never alone Never alone I¹ll be in every beat of your heart When you face the unknown Wherever you fly This isn't goodbye My love will follow you stay with you Baby you¹re never alone Well I have to be honest As much as I wanted I’m not gonna promise the cold winds won¹t blow So when hard times have found you And your fears surround you Wrap my love around you You're never alone Chorus May the angels protect you Trouble neglect you And heaven accept you when its time to go home And when hard times have found you And your fear surrounds you Wrap my love around you You¹re never alone Chorus My love will follow you stay with you Baby you're never alone

Written by

Karen

Thursday, October 9, 2008

FOURTH ALBUM GO~!!





Wednesday, October 8, 2008

水无点滴量的积累,难成大江河。人无点滴量的积累,难成大气候。没有兢兢业业的辛苦付出,哪里来甘甜欢畅的成功的喜悦?没有勤勤恳恳的刻苦钻研,哪里来震撼人心的累累硕果?只有付出,才能有收获。未来,掌握在我们自己手中。年轻是我们的资本,年轻无极限!……其实,每个人心中都有一座山峰,雕刻着理想、信念、追求、抱负。每个人心中都有一片森林,承载着收获、芬芳、失意、磨砺。但是,无论眼底闪过多少刀光剑影,只要没有付诸行动,那么,一切都只是镜中花,水中月,可望而不可及。一个人,若要获得成功,必须得拿出勇气,付出努力、拼博、奋斗。成功,不相信眼泪;成功,不相信颓废;成功,不相信幻影。成功,只垂青有充分磨砺充分付出的人。未来,掌握在自己手中。未来,只能掌握在我们自己手中。人生好比是海上的波浪,有时起,有时落,三分天注定,七分靠打拼!爱拼才会赢!……无论官大官小,心情舒畅就好。无论年老年少,身体健康就好。无论事业大小,能够成功就好。无论生意大小,只要赚钱就好。无论吃好吃坏,能够吸收就好。------前两句为锦涛同志语,后三句为清森同志补,是为五好歌,与大家共勉!

Friday, October 3, 2008

Rainy days

I like rainy days ...
as the weather is cool and ideal for taking a nap
or dreaming.. [nothing better than this]
BUT...BUT...

need to pick up the dry clothes as quick as possible

exactly just like participating in Olympics.. RUN

need to have hair wash ish ...


need to use umbrella

the worst is fall sick