Hunches

Sometimes I feel hopeless
Sometimes I feel down
Sometimes I feel I have been left by the whole whole
just like Adam
Just as to teach him a lesson

Sometimes I feel I am useless
Tell me why
I have to be like this
Tell me why
Why Why Why
Money is so important?
Being a solemn. persist .stale.
SLAVE of HIM
Money

I never feel warm
No kind and hearty words
split out from my parent
I do feel contented that I have a home
Just a hope, a dream or even just day dream
But they never support me in what I want
They control the freedom of mine
to think
to manage
to make decision
I feel useless
Sad or even mad
Strong feeling of
weep alone

Whipped alone
Nobody hear
Better to be like this
Nobody cares
Who cares
My parents crash my dream
I keep on combat

Nothing helps
Seems to be I can never handle
my dignity
circumstance of my life
My parents bewitch my life?

I try to find job
Now what season
6 various jobs
million of people apply
no one gets
YOU?? Depend on YOU??
Okay just fine
I hope to learn guitar
I think it is useless
It is better to learn others
Piano, violin, ....??
Don't be ridiculous
All this is USELESS
Sigh
pissed off by them
I totally feel the supermassive hole in my heart
I have been raised up like this condition
I find back my dignity after sometime
need to struggle
but hard
times cemented my heart
sometime I crack

The words pierce clearly in my
mind.heart.soul
Just like a disaster
a tornado
an earthquake
that catastrophes me
choked me
They always say something
from a microorganism to an universe
From a dinosaur to a dust
Hard to communicate

I ever think of die
It is hard
So better to indulge myself
by other things
those
free from MONEY's firm
Money's relative
Money's reservation area
Sometime I feel wryly
Soon numbness recover my pain
So
Whisper of the wind tells me
Listen to your heart