NOthing to do

To me, nothing to do is the most terrible thing in the world. This kind of feeling keep haunting me while I am still searching for my source of light. Working ? No news yet. I mean till right now. Do bless me that I can get a job to do. If not i truly going to be crazy. I feel a bit of sorrow and regret that i did not work hard in my secondary school hood haha. What to do>? Pay back? Gee no way. From now on I am not going to turn something yet everything that end to be "regret". Yea, yea ... To be or not to be. It is all depends on me [myself].