i lose

lose lose lose....
i won give up (really) ?
i don know.. i not sure...
i not enough determine... how to act as an acteress in my life..
hard must endure.. hard to lisen hard to see hy i don be a deaf blind..
why.. i wan to born in this world.. (why not mars?)
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i wan to change... what to change i do not know.. i not disiplin..
i hav many time try to plan but never take action...
i... alwayz run away from the truth..
ya.. 1/12 i did ...2/12 i lose... what a feeling...
rush in a sudden in my empty heart.. cause it hard to handle hard to hard aaa....
i just what i think ido think...
i tot love will owez visible... everything will be all right.?
say goodbye goodbye.........
today lastly a sunny dayz...
tmolo i having my tuition start. i still haben prepare yet..my feeling...
my all the thing.. not yet prepare..
what am i waiting for actualy i am not sure...
having a borther sister... mother and father
i never lack of anything.. except me myself..
i keep on thinking i lack of sometihng i hink of learning sometinhg new.. reading miss chee gives... books.. i try i try i try.. but i knot i knot...
what a noth sided ppl ... arhhhh.. breatheless....
no topic... no idea.. i lose...
i lose i no more feel thingz.. i wan to learn learn learn learn laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa